Self-Employment | Month 5

Wedding season is officially starting for me this Friday and things are about to get nuts up in here.  Honestly, though, I can't wait.  I've loved taking the (somewhat) leisurely approach to the last four months but I miss the adrenaline rush that comes with deadlines and time crunches.  I'm ready for it to start up again.  I'm ready for the stress and the "thinking on my feet" days.  I'm ready for the crammed organization and the massive to-do lists.  But most of all, I'm ready to capture the magic of lovely people in love.  That's why I started this business in the first place and all the engagement sessions and family portraits of the last few months are like teasers for the big days ahead.  They're like the appetizers before the main course ... and I'm ready to feast!

In looking back on this last month of self-employment I've noticed it brought with it a bit of a reality check.  My dream of working from home is not all unicorns and rainbows like I'd hoped.  Don't get me wrong, I absolutely think it's the best thing for me.  I never really accepted the "9 to 5" gig and struggled with making it work for me and my lifestyle.  But working from home has its own set of challenges that I'm still adjusting to.  And with that, I have a few confessions to make.

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1.  Working from home sometimes means I work in my pajamas for most of the day.  Or in gym clothes.  Either way, jeans and cute outfits are few and far between around here (which is why I don't really do outfit posts).

2.  Working from home also sometimes means I don't actually leave my apartment some days.  When there's a lot of editing work to do, errands get pushed aside and the only daylight I see is whatever happens to be streaming through the windows.  It can be a lonely way of life.

3.  Sometimes I don't shower or make the bed till 4 in the afternoon.  But, hey, at least it gets done, right?

4.  I don't keep anything remotely close to normal business hours.  I try to relegate emails and phone calls to normal "office" hours but I do other work at random times during the day.  Sometimes I don't start working until the afternoon.  Sometimes I keep working until 11pm (or later).  I often have shoots on weekends so Sunday then becomes a work day.  But I let myself take a random afternoon off to compensate.  Basically, this ain't no 9 to 5 lifestyle. 

5.  I still eat Top Ramen for lunch every once in a while.  Don't judge.  I think it's pretty tasty.  Plus, I add veggies and use chopsticks to make it feel more grown up - that counts for something, right? 

6.  I talk to Molly far more than any normal human being should talk to a guinea pig.

7.  Working from home hasn't done much to help my inherent social awkwardness.  I love meeting and getting to know new people but I'm naturally an introvert and not the smoothest at conversation.  In fact, I get really self-conscious and am always worried that I come across as awkward.  I've had to force myself to let that go during sessions because my top job (besides capturing great photos) is helping my clients feel comfortable.  But in other social situations, I often find myself at a loss for words.  The more time I spend alone (or talking to Molly) the less skilled I become at the art of conversation.

8.  Having my workspace in such close proximity to the refrigerator has not been kind to my waistline, which is why I've taken up spinning again.  My goal is to lose 8 lbs. by the end of August.  I know it'll take time so I'm giving myself three months (2.5 lbs a month seems more than reasonable) but I think what I really need to do is put a padlock on the fridge and cabinets.

9.  Sometimes I have dance parties...by myself.

10. Since I don't have too many daily interactions with humans, my funny stories are few and far between.  Sadly, the bus has become my main social outlet and I talk about the Real Housewives as if they're actually my friends.


  1. I think its great that you are able to work from home and, more importantly, for yourself! My dream is to be able to do graphic and web design for myself and be able to work from home. I have no idea when that'll be possible, but hopefully one day it will!

    Oh and totally not judging you on the Ramen because I eat that like once a week. Its delicious! I also partake in some Chef Boyardee pretty often which is probably far more shameful hahaha

  2. we totally eat top ramen here with eggs and veggie (just add an egg to the mix and it adds protein and yummy flavor) mostly because its one of my husbands favorite dinners (and one of the few he'll cook for me :)

  3. I think I would be far more successful if I didn't have to "dress" for work. And I think it's far worse to NOT have dance parties. Just sayin!

    Love your confessions!

  4. I totally support you wearing gym clothes while working from home...so much more comfortable than jeans! I love #10!

  5. Part of me thinks working in sweats at home would be awesome but I don't have the self discipline. I'm very impressed that you do. I'm a procrastinator who would sleep in and watch tv. Have fun during wedding season. You'll be great!!

  6. Numbers One and Eight are totally true for me. I try and get out of the house and work at a coffee shop just so I don't go insane. If you want someone to converse with, let me know. I'm on gchat always!

  7. so should we talk about how teresa is a crazy person and how i yell at her through the tv waaay more than i should? because i'm always game to talk RHONJ or any other city for that matter.

  8. ah this is so cute, and honest! I often wish I worked from home..

  9. Now that I am at home with my daughter I feel the same way about a lot of things. I am currently wearing sweats and haven't left the house all day. I haven't talked to anyone who is capable of talking back to me all day long!

  10. Is it wrong that nothing here shocked me because it is totally how I would roll if in the same situation. :D

  11. Heheh I like the ecard about how your morning is successful. Mmmm, lunch. :D

    Also, I talk to my cat probably just as much as you talk to Molly. She doesn't talk back but I know she understands English. :)

  12. You're so honest! I always thought that working from home would be good, but I do need someone to push me and I need to socialise! However, I wish you all the best - and hope all is going well for you! xx


  13. I think it's funny how so many items on your list could be easily talking about me. I guess working from home has its pros and cons, like any other job. I've been getting used to being more and more at home. And honestly, sometimes I just don't want to leave.
    And I don't really watch the Real Housewives (I don't have cable), but I do love the ones from New York. I totally refer to them as I knew them in real life.


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