Hey, Motivation, Get Back Here!!

I don’t know if this is a severe case of senioritis or extreme laziness but Mr. Motivation has been on an extended vacation lately and I actually need him to return.  For whatever reason, I just don’t want to do the things I have to do.  Even simple things, like watching a movie for my Law & Pop class, hold no appeal precisely because they are required activities.  I love movies.  I love escaping into another world for two hours and believing everything works out in the end.  If someone approached me right now and said, “Hey, you wanna watch a movie?” I’d probably say, “Sure!”  But because I’m told I must watch a movie, I protest.  I suddenly revert to the petulant child of days gone by and want to scream, “BUT I DON’T WANNA!!!”  

Why is this?  Is it because, as a student, I’m tired of someone else having control of my schedule?  Is it because, subconsciously, I’m bored by the life I’ve chosen?  Or maybe it’s because I just didn’t have enough coffee this morning…

Whatever the reason, it must end.  There are papers to write, finals to ace, and one major bar exam to pass.  You know how they say if you smile and fake happiness then you’ll actually begin to feel real happiness?  Maybe if I force myself to fake motivation then I will actually begin to feel motivated.  At this point, anything is worth a shot.

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